…under the knife

I have never had plastic surgery or even thought about it…on the outside that is.  I have however, been ‘under the knife’ more times than I would like to remember…on the inside.  Change for me is HUGE!  I don’t much like it…okay to be honest, I’d be quite comfortable without it.  I have learned though that in order to grow one must learn how to embrace change or in my case at least cordially ‘hug’ it a little.  In my heart of hearts I know that it can be a good thing and an important part of life and being human. I think I have already established though that I’m not so fond of the human stuff.  I liken change to plastic surgery because of the deep pain that I often feel as a result.  I love things deeply…I adjust and accommodate and even assimilate when necessary.  I like routine…it is a shelter for me.  I’m not talking little changes but let’s face it, life is riddled with plenty of large scale changes that are just that…part of life.  If I could stay a mom of young children all of my life I would do it.  If I were young enough and resourceful enough to birth and provide for 10 more children I would choose it.  The new chapter of my life stars my youngest of three heading to kindergarten and the oldest of my three beginning middle school.  As the chapters in their lives change majorly, so do mine by default.  And here I am once again, ‘under the knife’ and with no anesthesia…

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3 thoughts on “…under the knife

  1. We are kindred spirits in loving being Mom to those littles. But life goes on….darn it….and I would not swap one of my beautiful adult children to go back. You don’t raise children, hopefully you raise friends. And you’ll love it too. Cause Mom’s are like that…yeah, they are. So maybe that’s your anesthesia….future joys, future people you don’t know yet who are your kids.

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